Broken hearted

Today was a horrific day.

How could anyone kill innocent children? How could a man walk into a class room and shoot 5-10 year old children? Innocent babies who had just began their lives. Children, who this very morning, were probably bouncing off the walls about Christmas, vacation and Santa Claus. And now they are silenced by an Evil, sick man.

I sat in front of the computer watching the coverage of the shooting in Newtown Connecticut. I listened with tears in my eyes. Grady and Liam played in the living room. I knew Aiden was on the bus, on his way home. I couldn't wait to wrap him in my arms.

20 parents won't ever get to wrap their babies in their arms again and that is not fair.

I know a lot of parents held their kids a bit closer tonight. I know I did.

I always tell Aiden "I love you More" before he walks out the door. Now it has a whole new meaning to me. My kids need to know how much I love them. Today was another sad reminder that we never know what life will bring.

My thoughts and prayers are with the children, families and community members of Newtown Connecticut.

Today we saw the evil and darkness that is in this world. But we need to remember there is still goodness and light. For every piece of evil, there is a million more pieces of goodness. I look at my babies and I have to believe that.

This poem was posted on a memorial site for Sandy Hook Elementary School.
This morning I woke up,
looked at the Connecticut sky.
I had a good feeling
I can't tell you why.

I kissed Mommy goodbye,
and told Daddy I love you.
And before we separated at the sign,
...

I told sister see you soon.

The bell rung,
we all rushed inside.
It was warm and loving
like a campfire light.

The teacher smiled,
my friends waved hello.
We started class,
but before you know..

The door busted open,
a man with a gun.
I was scared and broken
I looked at the sun.

The same sun I saw
with so much love.
Now brought me worry
but I'd stay tough.

I felt a pain
go through my whole body.
I saw a light
and an awful goodbye.

I saw Mommy's face,
her beautiful, soft lips.
I kissed her this morning,
she was something I'd miss.

I smelled Daddy's cologne,
when he hugged me today.
He left for work,
not knowing what life would take.

Sister was only a few blocks away,
in a classroom, I could see
I'll never get to say
how much she means to me.

My 6th birthday was coming soon,
I was dreaming of ponies
dolls
and shoes.

Then I felt a hand
touch my face.
I was overwhelmed
in an amazing grace.

God said to me,
"don't be worry, child.
you've been here before.
it's just been a while."

I looked on my back,
where I found wings.
I felt a halo
and clouds under my feet.

With me, when I looked,
were my friends by my side.
That man sent us here,
but I"m alright.

Maybe he was sick,
maybe he was crazy.
Maybe he hurt us
because he was hurting, maybe?

I watch the tears
all over the country.
Over the few years
their pain because of me.

I watched my family
break apart.
but they knew
I was in their hearts.

I don't know much,
but I know this;
my mommy should've never
had to bury her own kid.

Although it's tough,
although it's hard
I think God would want us to forgive
th killer in our hearts.

What you dont know,
but what I'll tell you,
is I'm just fine.
in this heaven of mine.

Maybe this will teach you
to never regret a thing.
Be happy with what God gave you,
because you could've been me.

Now, maybe I was young,
maybe I didn't deserve it.
But maybe I taught a lesson,
now please...learn it.

Love with everything,
always smile a lot.
Remember this lesson,
that I taught.

Wipe the tears,
enjoy the years.
Time goes by fast,
you don't know which day is your last.

Pray for my famlily,
for my friend's family, too.
I'm sure they'll be grateful,
and thankful to you.

I'm an angel,
all brand new.
I came up here
this afternoon.

I would be 6 years old,
but God has a plan.
Remember this feeling of distraught,
remember this lesson that I taught.

Written by J.J. 12/14/12
Edited by S.Z. 12/14/12